Adele says the “ruthless” response to her decision to postpone her Las Vegas shows made her a “scale of a person” for months.
The singer was due to give a series of concerts at Caesars Palace from January to April this year, but those were canceled just 24 hours before opening night.
The 34-year-old shared a tearful video message apologized on social media at the time, saying her team had been “absolutely destroyed by delivery delays and COVID”.
But some fans have complained that they spent thousands traveling to Vegas for the shows — and new dates for Adele’s residency have yet to be confirmed.
Appearing on BBC Radio 4’s Desert Island Discs, Adele said she “definitely felt everyone’s disappointment” after her decision and that she was “devastated”.
She told host Lauren Laverne, “I was scared to let them down and I thought I could pull it together and make it work, and I couldn’t.
“I stand by that decision. I don’t think any other artist would have done what I did, and I think that’s why it was such a huge, huge story.
“I’m not just going to do a show because I have to or because people are being let down or because we’re going to lose a lot of money. I’m like, ‘The show isn’t good enough’.”
She added: “But it was terrible and the reaction was brutal. I was a shell of a person for a few months.”
Asked how she was coping with the fallout from the announcement, Adele said, “I just had to wait it out and just grieve. Just grieve for the shows and get over the guilt. But it was brutal.”
Adele was on Desert Island Discs the same weekend she played two sold-out concerts as part of the British Summer Time festival in London’s Hyde Park.
She spoke about her relationship with her alcoholic father, Mark Evans, from whom she was estranged but reconciled shortly before his death from cancer in 2021.
She said: “When I found out a few years ago that he was sick, I got the call and drove there right away. It was hard, but it was definitely one of the greatest moments of my life in a good way, when I went to see him.
“I made peace with him when I found out he was sick. And we got along, which was great, but also sad because he was really fucking funny.
“He’s really funny and I can’t remember that when I was little. But it was really fun. We laughed and we gossiped and we cried. It was great for both of us.”
The singer, who has a son Angelo with ex-husband Simon Konecki, said she wants more children with her boyfriend, American sports agent Rich Paul.
She said: “I would definitely want a few more children. It would be great if we can. If not, I have Angelo. I just want to be happy.”
Adele’s musical choices on Desert Island Discs include Dreams by Gabrielle, He Needs Me by Nina Simone and Bills, Bills, Bills by Destiny’s Child.